Almost a year since i last updated this blog. No wonder my chatterbox died. haha...

Well since the last time i updated this blog, many things have happened in my life. On the whole, its been good. God has filled my life where there was been a void. I will not go on detail but yes there has been a really pleasant and welcomed addition to my life. But it has not been easy, and well it is still quite difficult now. And though the void has been filled, it has not completely accepted its new position. Its like a new part of the body that has just been placed in the original body, it still is rejecting the body, still trying to get accustom and be one, with the body. (On a side note, i am actually quite amaze by my abstract description thus far. Though it is abstract, it sure has lots of meaning in it) I am trying to perservere and continue to love and to give give give and try to make the new part accept the body, but it still is hesitant, confused, cautious and defensive. Well this hurts, as wheneva the new part rejects the body, it is terribly pain. It has come to a point that i am near exhaustion and beyond exasperation. I really am. I need help. Though i know anyone of you reading this(hopefully not) will not be able to provide the help i need. Thanks for being there with me though. There have been a few people rather concerned abt his issue and i really thank you for ur concern. I appreciate it. If my cupid is reading this, thank you the most! You have been a blessing.

Serangoon cell has been a real blessing. There was a period of time when i skip cell because of my work commitments and stuff. But that has been the past. God has prevailed again. I remember quite some time ago, Sgoon Cell did pray for a change of my working environment, so that i can come to cell on Fridays. And you know wat, things have changed for the better. I havent been forced to go for Mess on fridays for a long time already. My boss and management has changed and there is no more of that culture of going to mess on fridays and stay till very late. Maybe its also because i have rised through the ranks already, and can afford to be more bo chap! Well, i know very clear where my priority lies. I pray that God will always keep my mind clear of my priorities. Hence in recent times, I have been very regular in cell and it has been great. Sgoon people that are reading this. YOU are why sgoon cell is so special. Man, woman, boys and girls that have been filled with the love of God. You all, me included as i am part of that cell, bring something special to the cell. That is your love. The love that God has placed in your life. To care and to pay attention to all, especially to the needy and more importantly to the newbiez. People, love is contagious. So pls go ahead and spread it! One more point of why sgoon is special is becoz of the focus of WORD. Cell grps dun exist because people like to come to gather and then have nice food and drinks. Cell exists because they change lives. They change lives and draw life because of the Living water the flows. The living water is the Word that the Lord gave. Amen. And to Nic that has been passing those smses around of prayer request and updates in the cell aka family. Thanks. Fantastic stuff.

Now talk a little abt the worship team. As you guys know, worship is a huge part of my life. And though i sin time and time and time again, i pray that God.. pls forgive me time and time and time again. Continue to use me for your purpose. All of me. He is a God of all, or none at all. Remember that. No 50%, no half half or 3/4...ALL! My team 3 has changed through the time. People have come and go. And well, the people i have now in my team, i really treasure. All of them love God and humble themself to Him. Humility is extremely impt in worship. Its only through humility will the Spirit be able to use you and I to lead God's children into a true and deep worship, communion with Him. I see true worship flowing from this team. The new additions to the team has really changed the dynamics. To those that have moved to other teams. Continue to chase God with all your passion!! I hope u have enjoyed worhipping God with us and i am sure ur new team will benefit with ur addition. On the whole, the entire music ministry in youth has really improved. But you know, we are only just beginning. "Oceans will part, Nations come, at the whisper of your name. Hope will rise, Glory shown, in my life Your will be done". Thats how awesome the name of our God is. Just a whisper and Oceans Part! Nations Come! Imagine if it is a shout of His name! Well, the worship teams, being the most prominent voice during the time when all His children open theirs hearts to sing to Him, has that responsibility. The responsibility of letting themselves be used by Him, letting the Holy Spirit take control of the worship. Thus "In my life, your will be done". Worship team people, you have a huge responsibility. Pls do not think its just playing music. Its not....  Keep it up guys/gals.

Lastly, today i made my bestest friend cry you know. Feel so terrible. And i didnt even know why. Until after service, someone very very impt to me explained to me. So bestest friend, I am sorry ok? I lend you my drums stick?? haha.......

Liebling, Ich warte Sie noch. Sie bedeuten soviel zu mir. Ich liebe dich.

Updating my blog again,

Well.. Its been 9 days since the youth church camp. Feels like its been so long.... Firstly, the camp was great. I guess many people has already gave that feedback already. I mean..............

"It will come about after this, That I will pour out My Spirit on all mankind; And your sons and daughters will prophesy, Your old man will dream dreams, Your young men will see visions." - Joel 2:28

We have seen the spirit move so so strongly during the worship sessions, the word, the altar calls and even during our quiet times. Our youth ministry is really advancing, but i really hope and pray that this is not just another emtionally high thing. It always happens like after camp, FOP etc etc. Emotionally high i would agree, but let us build on this and build our inter spirit in God's way. Build a strong inner spirit man. Even when emotion fades, friends leave, trials come, temptation come, when things dun turn out the way we hope it would, when relationships dun work out.... Know for a fact that God is here for you and me. 365days, 24/7..... 

"...Wheneva i feel down, when everything seems wrong, such times i feel i just cant hold on anymore. When i remind myself of Him, He who can take away my cares, Jesus thanks for the faith i now have in you Lord...........You have been faithful in all of your ways, though i do not understand why we go thru live this way......."

Well, honestly when i look back. i feel i haven been really happy inside me for a very long time.. can say prob abt 3 years plus liao. Thru this times, God has really provided for me financially, developed the worshipper in me, mold my character, took care of my family, recently provided a wonderful avenue and mentor for my dad to explore in the area of work. But He has also taken away things there were/are very dear to my heart. Maybe this is a time of molding, of achieving, building a foundation for things to come.. i will never know till much later...  This pilot career has really tested my resolve and faith in God these years.. where i was away for 2 years..where things that were dear to me was far away from me. Well, i really hope it all turns out well at the end of the day. Its tough being a christian man.... but at least i know that my God has planned something for me and that i know my destination....... Cannot imagine if i wasnt, would be wondering what all these is about, what life is all about....

haha.. thing everybody though this blog update would be a happy happy one, the camp and all. But i didnt plan to write all these. Just felt like writing. Everybody in the faith goes thru difficult times...Though sometimes we only see the person when he/she is in church where everything seems all good.. but trust me that everyone goes thru alot alot. Feeling close to God, feeling far from God. Remember(Reminding myself too)... ITS NOT HOW WELL WE START, NEITHER IS IT HOW WELL WE DO DURING THE RACE, IT IS HOW WELL WE END IT. But if you dun start, you will never be able to finish it. You cant pace yourself too, cos you dun know how soon you will finish or how long, All we can do is give our best(even when we are soooo tired and wanna rest or even quit) and let God help us with the rest... *hmm.. it ryhmes*

k lar.. thats all folks..

till i feel like blogging again.................. in the mean time. Keep leaving messages and stuff haha.. it actually is quite nice..

Hi all,

Just put down the phone... talked to my friend for about 2 hours. And the last 1 1/2 hrs, we have been talking about religion. Am trying to get her to come for alpha the next run or so.. however she is really a tough one.

For one, she is very strong minded. She thinks that the human mind is very powerful and all these miracles and believes can be created or done if one is really bent and determine and focus on it. And that asking people to pray for you or even pray with you just strengthens this human will so that things wil happen. Not God. like those people that actually bend metal spoons with their minds without touching them...

She also like ask, how do you proof that Jesus rose to heaven, who can proof it?? I told her that its becos all these were documented by many during that time, and all of these "documents" are all congruent with one and another. And though the people that saw the resurrection are no longer around, their records do mean something. Just like when we talked on the phone, how do we proof that we actually did that 100 years from now?? unless u go pull out records from telecom.. hehe.

She is also very sharp in arguments...so sometimes she will use your words against u type.. wah.. difficult man. haha.. but i didnt engage in arguments with her lar.. keep telling her that i am just sharing my side of what i know, and that i am and will listen to wat she believes and stuff... JUST LIKE ALPHA!!...

But i am lousy!! Coz i am not knowledgable enough to help answer all the questions. Muz say sorry to God on this. Sorry Dad..

People with strong will are so difficult to convince. Sighz..

And one thing that she feels is that she feels that preaching the Word is like manipulating the mind and like brain washing. All people should learn how to be better or learn to be what they want thru life experiences.. AND she is very against manipulation. She feels strongly that it is Wrong! thus preaching = manipulating the mind to her.

When i say everybody do experience God in their own way, and we grow not by just going every sunday and hear this guy preach the bible on stage, but by experience God in everyday stuff. Then she goes back to the "mind is a very powerful thing" again. sighz!!! HELP!! haha..

then when i challenge her thoughts and when things start to convince her(can hear from the tone of her voice when she got nothing to rebutle)... like how do we know that the lecturer teach a+b=c?? if one writes down.. and share with someone outside the lecture hall.. that someone might not believe, but if all 500 students(who dont know each other) in that lecture hall each shows that someone the notes they wrote on a+b=c... it has to be true!!.. just like the truths in the bible...  then she would pause for a while.. and say.. " YOU SEE... PREACHING TO ME AGAIN!!"

so.. helpless... but i think she might be interested in coming for alpha though. Cause i told her i would love to see the face of the facilitator when she pose all her questions and put for her arguements.. using her YA(2) JIAN(1) ZUI(3) LI(4) self.. ehehe

PLS PRAY FOR HER TO HAVE AN OPENNESS!!.. Her name is Doreen.

And help me to better answer her questions... as like where do all the facts and researches come from?? satelite pictures of noah's arc and the tabenacle, who went to proof the dimensions same as the bible.. type of facts and stuff.. Which or which group of experts or professors did the research and stuff... HELP!!!!!! i am so not a research research or scientific type... JOEL !!.. PASTOR KENNY!! HELP...

ehh hemm.. i am back again!

wah tell u guys ah... (oh and that includes the lovely pastors we have in church and here.. hehe) cannot keep up with you guys man. Not here for couple of days/weeks only kanna complain disappear and never update! haha.. old liao..

Anywayz.. the sunday's extended worship was great!! The spirit really flowed and i believe everyone enjoyed our Daddy's presence. U know, we didnt have time to practice before the session, but we just prayed. And you know what!, Daddy came and took us into a place of worship!! haha... so shiok rite, we are just his instruments.

Going thru really tough times recently... Emotionally very tired and weary. Just hope everything will turn out well. Though for this case, things turning out well might mean more hurt and heartbreak. Will just have to brace myself.. So tired and weary.

However, this month i am on course. And by that, means classes and stuff. No work! haha.. shiok and relaxing man, everyday 8-5.. and sometimes actually earlier.. keke..

yah.. many of u have exams and tests coming up. PLS DO WELL!!.. keep working for it!.. enjoyment and fun is just round the corner. I actually propose to my cell some beach volleyball or soccer at sentosa when all is done. Everybody can all come!!! the more the merrier. more teams!!

yar.. so will be quite free till 6 oct.. when i am on course. Long time since karaoke already. haha.. if anybody is free... lets meet up!!

haha..

take care all u lovely lovely people,

God bless..

Jesus Reigns!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just did some stuff to my front page..

haha.. added music too...